03-05-2011, 06:03 PM
O thou that with surpassing glory crowned
Look'st from they sole dominion like the god
Of this new world, at whose sight all the stars
Hide their diminished heads, to thee I call
But with no friendly voice and add thy name,
O Sun, to tell thee how I hate thy beams
That bring to my remembrance from what state
I fell, how glorious once above thy sphere
Till pride and worse ambition threw me down,
Warring in Heav'n against Heav'n's matchless King.
-Milton, Paradise Lost
Away From The Sun
Look'st from they sole dominion like the god
Of this new world, at whose sight all the stars
Hide their diminished heads, to thee I call
But with no friendly voice and add thy name,
O Sun, to tell thee how I hate thy beams
That bring to my remembrance from what state
I fell, how glorious once above thy sphere
Till pride and worse ambition threw me down,
Warring in Heav'n against Heav'n's matchless King.
-Milton, Paradise Lost
Away From The Sun
Sagi jumped backwards, beads of sweat running down his face, glistening in the light of the moon. He ducked down, just in time, blade sinking into a tree behind him before being torn away, scattering bark and wood to the ground. The sword raised up, willed on by the power of its wielder, before slamming down into the ground, sending up pieces of earth and leaving a heavy gash in the dirt.
Fel green eyes turned searching in the darkness. Sin'dorei hands lifted the blade up again. A feverish voice called out into the night air, broken into fragments by deep breaths, "Don't hide from me... I know you're out there." The blood elf's lips curled into a mad smile, chest raising up and down. He silenced himself, standing still. His green eyes searched the forest, peering into the bushes, rocks, and trees. Head turning at every sound, be it his enemy, or the winds, or that constant drumming.
Sagi heard the drumming to, again and again, beating to the same rhythm of his ragged breaths. He knelt, concealed in shadow, trying to calm his own heart. But it pounded on furiously and the noise, so loud within Sagi's mind, made his body shiver with fear.
There's no time... I've got to finish this before that darkness has a chance to truly hatch. If it comes to that...
I've already spent too much energy to take on a nightmare.
Motion. It attracted the Sin'dorei's eyes. As if slipping out of the shadows he saw Sagi return. Swinging the blade downward, he laughed, "Finally! You've come to die. Lets finish this!" The Sin'dorei held his blade in front of him, point angled towards Sagi. Then, letting out a yell he rushed forwards, feet pounding into the ground.
Sagi tipped his hat up, hands standing empty and ready. His eyes started to darken as shadow wrapped around his form.
Alright Sagi... Calm down... Three... two... one...
Suddenly his body became transparent, and he charged as well, dark iron staff in his hands, wicked spikes jutting out from its top. The two clashed, weapons sending sparks as they passed each other. Sagi turned to see his opponent already rushing at him again. He took in a deep breath before letting out an ear-piercing scream, brief but layered with psychic energy. It paused the Sin'dorei, but not for long. The shakes quickly faded and he was charging again while Sagi tried frantically to catch his breath.
Tendrils of shadow forced their way through the Sin'dorei's body, making him yell to the skies. More and more constantly forced themselves into him, until he fell to the ground, a crumpled mass. Sagi looked dumbfounded at the body for a few moments before his eyes settled on a figure in blue robes just ahead of him. He relaxed, putting the bottom of his staff on the ground and leaning on it, "It took you long enough..."
An echoing voice replied as the figure moved forward "I was dealing with other issues. You should learn how to fend for yourself better."
Sagi rolled his eyes as he stepped towards the Sin'dorei. The black metal of his staff began to gleam with a sick energy before a dark stream pierced the Sin'dorei's body "As you say Sozun. What's next? Wait don't tell me. More harvesting correct?"
"Don't get so smart. Actually, no. Its about time we left Duskwood behind us... We will return but for now, I think our work here is done. There is business elsewhere... And unfortunately it won't be so easy to work quietly anymore. Be ready to travel, you'll be on your own again until I've assembled enough worthy servants."
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Sagi stepped out onto the docks of Booty Bay. The shining sun made him wince, its light strong enough that it was almost blinding for the elf. He turned away from it, tipping his hat down, eyes only half open.
Its been 33 days... 33 days since I last saw the sun. After Un'Goro... Trapped in Duskwood with Sozun for a month. Its funny... I've not even been away for that long but...
Sagi took another glimpse at the sun through half-open eyelids. Still, the light was too much. He turned away again, back now facing while he stared into his own shadow.
Its so foreign now. So far away. It feels strange. The warmth, these bright rays. Even uncomfortable.
I wonder if there will ever come a day when I cannot even look upon it anymore.
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"You're wrong... Because I've already felt it. Maybe it just takes a further dive into the darkness for you... but for me, I know its there. Even now it watches me, hiding in every corner, eyes peeking out of every shadow. A powerful nightmare I cannot contain. Its waiting for the moment to strike, waiting for the time... It needs not strength nor courage... No, it nourishes itself with my palpable fear. That winged-lurker... Even now its playing the cruelest game of them all, waiting. Waiting to see me at my most frightened, when anxiety and despair take me forever... Then, without lifting a finger, it will have won. And I dare not deny it, that shadowy apparition will succeed. Its darkness is too great."
Those words echoed in my head endlessly every day after his death. I thought that I would go mad, that I was going through the greatest of suffering, loosing my mind. But I was wrong. Because then I too saw that fearsome beast... At first I thought my mind simply played tricks on me... But no, I would hear its wings flapping in the air. Hear its screeching voice. See the black plumes...
It was then that I realized the sanity I still had. Because what sane man would not jump at every sound, look behind him at every turn, hid with fright in every corner.... What sane man would not feel paranoia grab him and control his life, when such a dark apparition was always behind him, watching his every move. A bird of prey... Shadowy hunter of shadows. What sane man would not fear death?
It was then that I realized there were only two options if I wanted to continue to survive without fear. Lose my sanity, or become immortal...
I chose to chase after the latter, turned to darkness forever... And forgot everything in that other realm, that world of light. Warmth. Touch. Emotion. The voice of a child... The breath of a lover... The beams of the sun... And to stay sane, to live without them, I had to force myself to hate them. Never again would I love, and forever more I would despise those golden rays.