01-17-2012, 06:57 AM
Hello friends,
Apologies are a funny thing, aren't they?
Here on CotH we argue a lot. I can go back and pull up many of the recent drama threads which have been surfacing, and I'm almost completely certain that when looking through these threads there were better ways to accomplish things. Better words to say, posts best left unposted, so forth. Through these threads and through the forum as a whole we argue and fight a ton, but I seldom ever see any apologies or compromises. Should people be forced to apologize to those they insult? No, that's just a band-aid. A forced condolence doesn't mean nearly as much as some would think.
I've lost my train of thought very quickly. I believe I'll sum this up. Do you really want to make the server better? Fighting won't do that, as much as you feel that you would accomplish by bashing on another player. Compromise and apologize where need be. Idealistic? Perhaps. I still feel that even if a small group could be fostered which acts in this manner, we would be a better place for it. Since I'm into the whole 'practice what you preach' bit, I guess I'm up on that note.
To Everyone: Well this is a bit of a broad group, isn't it? To the server and all who are members, I apologize. I realize that my methods may at times be cruder than you would wish them to be, and I fully understand that I have my own opinions which are departed from some of your own. If it is any consolation, then I will say that everything I have done in my capacity as a GM has been with good intent. If I have made any decisions which directly or indirectly have affected you, know that each of those was done because at the time I had the betterment of the server itself in mind. Perhaps I was misguided in my belief or simply too stubborn to alter my views, but I will say with certainty that I have never made a decision with the sole intent being to negatively impact anyone. If you feel that I have, I apologize again.
To the Staff: I've said things in confidence of the staff that I suppose I owe an apology for specifically as well. I reiterate the above, that I do not reject ideas or dissent to any action simply out of spite. It is little secret that I do not always get along with the entirety of the team, and for that I can partly lay blame on myself. I am not a social person, usually. I am not typically inclined to work within any group, just as I generally have issues with communicating my desires to any collection of people. It may very well be that you are one of those people whom I do not know well, and because of that I have been apprehensive and, at times, negative. I cannot apologize for all of my actions, but there are still many which I can do so for. In any capacity, I apologize if I have been seen as unfair to you at any point. Such was never my intention.
To Grakor: I feel sick whenever I have to bring a problem to you, Grakor. There are times where I feel that most of our interactions are my complaints and reports, and for that I'm sorry. You're my friend as well, and I don't think I have always made that very evident with as many times as I have gone to you for quick resolutions and affirmations. I guess I feel at times that I'm speaking more GM to Admin instead of a friend to a friend, and for that I apologize greatly.
To my Friends: I really owe you guys one. For any concern or comfort you've given me, and for any prods to keep me in check in the past. I know I have, at times, become too engrossed. I know that at times CotH has rendered me depressed or angry, and if I have ever let that steam out in your direction I apologize. If that instead has ever brought concern to you, I apologize even more. I am a very reactionary person, though. I get depressed, happy, angry, anything without too much nudging, and I realize at times this has become so bad that I've been asked by others IRL if I'm feeling ill or not. I know I've got that way during the latest spout of drama, and I really don't mean to make you guys an outlet for my frustration if I have done so unknowingly.
My name is Rigley, and I am a player and a content-centered gamemaster of Conquest of the Horde. I am depressive, cynical, irate, stubborn, and at times vindictive. And while it may not always seem like it, I mean the best and I hope for the best. And I apologize if my views and actions have ever brought you discomfort or anger.
If you want to do me a favor, there is a button at the bottom of this post. It says 'Message', and if you have any issue with me (or wish to discuss any issue with me) click that box and speak with me about it. The blind can't lead the blind after all, and as I have said in the past I will not learn if my error is not made evident. My only request is that the discussion be civil, because I'm not sure how many more bouts of anger I can take at this point. If you do PM me I will endeavor to understand your complaint and -will- speak with you over it. Otherwise, I appreciate any thoughts you might leave below this post.
I guess that's it. Thanks for reading if you took the time to.
-Rigley
Apologies are a funny thing, aren't they?
Here on CotH we argue a lot. I can go back and pull up many of the recent drama threads which have been surfacing, and I'm almost completely certain that when looking through these threads there were better ways to accomplish things. Better words to say, posts best left unposted, so forth. Through these threads and through the forum as a whole we argue and fight a ton, but I seldom ever see any apologies or compromises. Should people be forced to apologize to those they insult? No, that's just a band-aid. A forced condolence doesn't mean nearly as much as some would think.
I've lost my train of thought very quickly. I believe I'll sum this up. Do you really want to make the server better? Fighting won't do that, as much as you feel that you would accomplish by bashing on another player. Compromise and apologize where need be. Idealistic? Perhaps. I still feel that even if a small group could be fostered which acts in this manner, we would be a better place for it. Since I'm into the whole 'practice what you preach' bit, I guess I'm up on that note.
To Everyone: Well this is a bit of a broad group, isn't it? To the server and all who are members, I apologize. I realize that my methods may at times be cruder than you would wish them to be, and I fully understand that I have my own opinions which are departed from some of your own. If it is any consolation, then I will say that everything I have done in my capacity as a GM has been with good intent. If I have made any decisions which directly or indirectly have affected you, know that each of those was done because at the time I had the betterment of the server itself in mind. Perhaps I was misguided in my belief or simply too stubborn to alter my views, but I will say with certainty that I have never made a decision with the sole intent being to negatively impact anyone. If you feel that I have, I apologize again.
To the Staff: I've said things in confidence of the staff that I suppose I owe an apology for specifically as well. I reiterate the above, that I do not reject ideas or dissent to any action simply out of spite. It is little secret that I do not always get along with the entirety of the team, and for that I can partly lay blame on myself. I am not a social person, usually. I am not typically inclined to work within any group, just as I generally have issues with communicating my desires to any collection of people. It may very well be that you are one of those people whom I do not know well, and because of that I have been apprehensive and, at times, negative. I cannot apologize for all of my actions, but there are still many which I can do so for. In any capacity, I apologize if I have been seen as unfair to you at any point. Such was never my intention.
To Grakor: I feel sick whenever I have to bring a problem to you, Grakor. There are times where I feel that most of our interactions are my complaints and reports, and for that I'm sorry. You're my friend as well, and I don't think I have always made that very evident with as many times as I have gone to you for quick resolutions and affirmations. I guess I feel at times that I'm speaking more GM to Admin instead of a friend to a friend, and for that I apologize greatly.
To my Friends: I really owe you guys one. For any concern or comfort you've given me, and for any prods to keep me in check in the past. I know I have, at times, become too engrossed. I know that at times CotH has rendered me depressed or angry, and if I have ever let that steam out in your direction I apologize. If that instead has ever brought concern to you, I apologize even more. I am a very reactionary person, though. I get depressed, happy, angry, anything without too much nudging, and I realize at times this has become so bad that I've been asked by others IRL if I'm feeling ill or not. I know I've got that way during the latest spout of drama, and I really don't mean to make you guys an outlet for my frustration if I have done so unknowingly.
My name is Rigley, and I am a player and a content-centered gamemaster of Conquest of the Horde. I am depressive, cynical, irate, stubborn, and at times vindictive. And while it may not always seem like it, I mean the best and I hope for the best. And I apologize if my views and actions have ever brought you discomfort or anger.
If you want to do me a favor, there is a button at the bottom of this post. It says 'Message', and if you have any issue with me (or wish to discuss any issue with me) click that box and speak with me about it. The blind can't lead the blind after all, and as I have said in the past I will not learn if my error is not made evident. My only request is that the discussion be civil, because I'm not sure how many more bouts of anger I can take at this point. If you do PM me I will endeavor to understand your complaint and -will- speak with you over it. Otherwise, I appreciate any thoughts you might leave below this post.
I guess that's it. Thanks for reading if you took the time to.
-Rigley