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(01-23-2015, 04:46 AM)lordnathal Wrote: I just entered in CotH only a week ago and still was learning to play. I just posted my character's tail 2 days ago and now we're closing. By the way, I just want only to thank all those who offered me RP experience inside the game. I'll never forget this server and what I've done here. Perhaps if one day any of you open an new server like this, based in WoW RP, just warn me via Facebook. https://www.facebook.com/natanael.fernades.9

I'll be waiting further notices !!!

There's still some hope left! We're going to do what we can to see if we can avoid such a grim fate.
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(01-23-2015, 05:14 AM)Dilly Wrote:
(01-22-2015, 11:58 PM)Maulbane Wrote:
(01-22-2015, 10:41 PM)Harmonic Wrote:
(01-22-2015, 10:33 PM)Cerb57 Wrote: Sad I was only here for year, but man. In the one year I've been here I've made some great friends, great laughs, and at times been frustrated as all hell. But I'm glad I came here, glad I registered and glad I made that dork of Warlock Dastin Witmar.

Met my -best- friends here.

Cerb is living proof of that.

Little known fact? Cerb and I went to see Captain America: Winter Soldier together. If it wasn't for CoTH I'd have never met him.

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You two are just too adorable. :)
Damn it, Twilight. You said the insightful stuff I was going to say. Now what the hell am I going to say?

Well, then.

I know I have a reputation here. And, frankly speaking, I've never understood exactly what I am to this community. Or why everyone goes crazy whenever I post. I haven't seriously been involved in RP for around 3 years. Oh, sure, every now and then I hop on to attend an event or shoot the shit....but I've considered myself a non-factor in the RP scene here for a long, long while.

And honestly, none of you really know me.

Yet, I'm still oddly drawn, oddly a part of this community. I'm something to you all, and you all are something to all me, and I've never been able to distinguish what that something is.

I suppose it's because I love to hide in mystery. I love the audience. I love that I have a soapbox, for me to stand on and perform. It feeds my very frail, very fledgling ego; validates my ideas, opinions, and general wozziness of my persona. I look at my posts, see all the likes (of varying classes, too. Admins, GM's, peons 'n grunts of all different tribes and side like my stuff), and it makes me go "good job, existence. You did something other's approved of."

Seriously. I have more likes than actual posts. Who else has that? I think I am the only one.

@Kretol, I demand a special sticker. The shiniest, most specialist one in ALL the pre-school.

I am a happy face that dances in absurdity, criticizing all sides while never aligning with one. Sometimes, I'll criticize the GM team; other times, I'll praise them. Sometimes, I'll grill the playerbase, other times, I'll champion them. No one really knows what I'll do, or what I'll say, because I'm not really sure either.

And it's comforting, in it's own way. I like making these elaborate, crazy, ranting 'n raving posts because it's cathartic, in it's own way. It's the only way I have a way of kind of validating myself. Not from this entirely (heavens no!), but it's one of the few things that I can cling to.

And that's a problem.

I'll take this opportunity to open up a little bit about myself. Though many of you know this already--I am a crazy recovering drug addict who's been institutionalized for long periods of times, twice, and has a long history of major depression, crippling anxiety, substance abuse, and suicidal ideation. I work a shitty night job at a hotel (I hate it) and have genuinely given up on just about everything. I do not have any real-life friends, because they'll all either dead, in jail, or vanished. I have very few online friends. Maybe, like, 3. I do not have any intimates, and I have no motivations or dreams of any kind. My major is mixed up and useless. I spent 7 years working for a degree that can't even get me a decent job. I'm so buried in debt that I cannot even build a savings account, despite working an average of 45 hours a week for 7 or so months while still living with my sickly parents. I regularly think about killing myself. I regularly get crippling depressed when I think about the state of the world, the global-political arena, the socio-economic structure of modern society, the exploitative nature of unfetterd globalized capitalism, the terrible actions of humanity and how I can't do anything about any of it ever. Sometimes, I can't stop drinking. Sometimes, I don't want to stop drinking. Sometimes I think how great it'd be to start smoking heroin again, or how easy it would me to crawl back inside a pill bottle and never come out. As I am right now, I have nothing to live for. I'm broken, and I wish someone would erase me from ever being.

Basically, I'm all kinds of fucked. You knew this already, but it's kind of terrible and sad.

Quote: Damn it Krent, why haven't you talked about the current topic yet?! Also please get help the above paragraph is kind of really sad :c

Working on it.

Anyway, The reason why I'm opening up just a little bit now is because...I figure this would be a good as time as any.

Many of you are saying your goodbyes. Many of you are raging against that good night. Many of you are too tired and confused as to really know what to do. And, for all of that, I can simply say this;

This event will be whatever you want it to be. Things are only important as you make them. You get what you invest, in all things.

If this is going to be a grand good bye where everything you hold dear ends? It will be.

If this is going to be a valiant struggle to find a new haven to roleplay in the Warcraft setting? It will be.

If this is going to be a devastation that you cannot recover from. It will be.

If this is going to be a crucible for you and your friends to endure, and grow a stronger connection with? It will be.

You can make this an end, a beginning, a positive, a negative, or all of the above if you let it.

The opportunity warps in whatever shape you forge it in. Do you want it to be a cathartic goodbye--an end that forces you to walk away from something you once held dear? Then it shall be.

Do you want this to be the catalyst to explore a new work of fiction? A new setting, a new place to call home? Then it shall be.

Do you want this to be a calling-card to strengthen the bonds you've already forged--giving the people you care about more means of contacting you? Then it shall be.

The point I'm trying to make, is that this doesn't have to be an end. Many of you have already stated that you're not going to stop RP'ing with the friends you've already made. Good.

Go on and do whatever it is you want to do, what you feel you need to do. Reconnect, rebuild, strengthen.

This is only an end if you let it be.

"What a mess we made, when it all went wrong..."
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Krent, I told you to make a short post. I think you wanted to make a big post after all. I think you lied, Krent. I think you're a liar.
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(01-23-2015, 06:45 AM)Maulbane Wrote: Krent, I told you to make a short post. I think you wanted to make a big post after all. I think you lied, Krent. I think you're a liar.

I am a liar. I always lie. You should never accept anything I say as truth.

Maulbane Wrote:But...if you always lie, that means that you're lying about being a liar, which validates a truth you say I can't accept, and, and, and...

*Head explodes*

Flawless victory.

Quote: But Krent, you can't just use quote tags to make people say the things you want them to...

I just did.


"What a mess we made, when it all went wrong..."
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[4:16:27 PM] Cristovao di Silvio ( @CappnRob): theres the bar. then theres the bottom of the barrel, then theres you sachi
Since quoted text doesn't show up in search results, that basically counts as a short post. By powergaming me you have only succeeded in powergaming yourself.
A long one, but I feel it appropriately sums up my sorrow at the moment.

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(01-23-2015, 02:30 AM)Maulbane Wrote: I haven't heard of Kretol receiving a donation since I joined almost six years ago, which is in itself fortunate and a hideous tragedy considering all the work he's done here.

I've donated to him, and I know at least one other person who has. Even if what I donated was laughably miniscule. :/

Either way, the whole taking donations thing is a concern too if there are any attempts to recover from this by Kretol, even though figuring out how to do it takes some forum navigation.
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(01-23-2015, 03:06 AM)Loxmardin Wrote:
(01-23-2015, 12:04 AM)Wujen Wrote: Thou filthy swine, back to whence you came. You shall not escape justice this time!

That's nice. :)

I would like to think you aren't instigating on purpose, though I may as well lay down a warning. Whether the server and the site remains or not doesn't matter, I'm still going to start reprimanding for trollish posts if they keep up.
Even as the ship goes down, you still hold to your guns. I respect that, I truly do.
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Although I have my doubts that this is legitimate, just in case it's not...

I don't really know what to feel. I've been away for a long, long time but CotH has played a big role in my life. Joined when I was 15 years old, and now I'm almost 22. Pretty crazy. I made friends that I still keep in contact with now. Even today I still continue to shape and mould my main character as well as other ideas, all of them originating from CotH. I've been absent but it didn't stop me from checking in every now and again.

The few who know me probably know that I don't like getting cheesy and sensitive, but I will say that a new beginning isn't always the worst thing. Even if CotH gets burned to the ground, the idea of CotH remains the same. A RP community. Nothing can really get in the way of that. If CotH is doomed then my advice for guys is to think of it like moving house.

Again I really have doubts that this is legit, but nonetheless I wanted to say my peace.

Wish you all the best. /salute
"I am more afraid of one hundred sheep led by a lion than one hundred lions led by a sheep."
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I am not the sort of person to get emotional, so I'll just say the following: I announced my triumphant return Wednesday, and the following day the DMCA was filed. You disappoint me.
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I started high school with CoTH. I wanted to finish it with CoTH. Technically, I can. Considering I'm at an early college high school so I'm starting college next year. It's...really sad that it won't really happen.
Perhaps it is your imperfection that which grants you free will, that allows you to persevere against cosmically calculated odds. You prevailed where the Titans' own perfect creations have failed.

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(01-23-2015, 07:51 AM)Piroska Wrote: I am not the sort of person to get emotional, so I'll just say the following: I announced my triumphant return Wednesday, and the following day the DMCA was filed. You disappoint me.

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I called it.
I should have just stuck in the wiki. You guys got the benefit of an organized, updated repository, and I didn't have to worry about destroying the known universe. I'm too awesome to be contained.

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