Blegh.. who needs a title.

[Aruen]

I do.. oh man..

Either way!, I have been far from active these last days.. stalling and stalling and well, frankly, I'm absent! Or well, have been for quite some time. Reason for this is that I kinda lost RP inspiration, RPing turned into a drag rather then the fun it used to be.. so yah, I'm taking a time out. Or well, I was already for the last 3 weeks but now it's official.

Stuff.. Not quite sure what else to say other then that I'll be probably back at some point nobody can leave this place for good.. and well, have fun y'all?

I'm thinking of just doing retail for a bit.. PvP again, whack some random L0lzorz, and fetch myself into the raiding guild which my sis is in as well.. who knows. I've always been interested in those gigantic raids. Problem is I'm too lazy to level my behind up to 70.. but hey, I'm rambling!..

Where was I? Oh yeah, Goodbye for now. Adieu, Farewell, and other stuff. My characters are doing.. whatever, whenever.. stuff.

More stuff.

A.

[Jason]

Can I borrow your whip? I need it for...stuff...

[Errata]

Lick your wounds and get back as soon as you're able to do so! Have fun.

[Aruen]

So, as I lay awake in my bed thinking of the restart, and all other things that happened here. I ended up at the question: "Is it even healthy?" And after biting my lip and shrugging the feeling off, it made me realise.. It really ain't.

I remember starting out here, full of excitement, nervous as well seeing I had to be accepted. When my introduction got accepted faster then expected, I replied with the question if I really was accepted already. Big green letters stated I was, and I still needed confirmation.. Good times. I managed to find RP real easily, build up a nice circle of friends and when I look back at that.. It seems far away.

So I've finally decided something I've been thinking off for a good while, and it's more along the question "What's good for me?" then anything else. I've decided it's good for me to finally move on, and leave this place entirely. I've tried tons of things to fit in again, people replied many times that they had no quarrel with me and I've made plenty of threads regarding it.. But all in all, it's a though thing to let go, and now that it's even keeping me up at night, I told myself that enough is enough.

To the GMs that reviewed and approved my profiles for post-restart, I'm sorry for the time spend and now wasted for it. For the convenience, I've linked them below so you can safely remove them (If that's even necessary). This naturally means my names are once free to get for anyone wanting them, recycling is a good thing. I haven't kept up-to-date with the news, but found the Post-restart sub-forum emptied of profiles, and thus linked the ones on the wiki instead:

http://wiki.conquestofthehorde.com/Leanna

http://wiki.conquestofthehorde.com/Lara

http://wiki.conquestofthehorde.com/Arlaina

Or the entire list:

http://wiki.conquestofthehorde.com/Spec ... arch=Aruen

I also wish to thank you for all the tokens you've dealt with, profiles you accepted over the time and any other problem I had poked you for. I've had quarrel with some of you, but without you guys, CotH wouldn't have been CotH and you really don't deserve all the trouble you get from players. You guys are great, each and every one of you and I encourage you to keep up with the quality work you've provided for CotH. This goes without saying for the Administrators as well.

To the people of CotH: I've apologized so many times by now that it would probably mean little if I repeated myself yet again, safe to say I still feel moronic for the hard time I gave several of you, and without a doubt made this RP sanctuary a hell-hole to some. I'm not sure what to say to you guys, other then perhaps a advice received due to my experiences on here: If you get mad, wrap your fingers up with duck-tape and think the situation over, don't lash out, as people honestly don't deserve it even when it feels that way. For the rest.. Be happy, it's a game and don't think people on here are out to get you. It's a community for a reason, and admittedly on the first place of top ten communities I've found online.

And while this last bit is more aimed at two (who I find) special people, I figured I was better of writing it in here and leave the chance to them if they wish to read it.

Your green and a heart filled machine, I've tried several times to talk things out with you, but you've always stood firm regarding it. Needless to say, I still believe you do awesome work and your motivation to help people over and over is admiring. While still sorry for lashing out at you personally, I do advice to ask yourself: "Is it truly worth being pissed over one person for that long?" Honestly, no hard feelings, I think your great despite my serious failing at showing it.

For the second person.. It's actually hard to describe anything, despite having shared the most RPs I've ever had on here with you and you solely. Entire nights filled with it, reaching a point where you send me off to bed because it was late. (*Grin*) Regardless, I must have turned your world upside down as well on occasion.. and words can't express my feelings right now if I had known anything of what I now know, had I known it back then. Can say that I would have stayed at least, that I wouldn't have gone on a absence. But I guess it's too late for that now. I've kept my hope up and probably will for a good while, that's just the way I am. It also forces me to say something along the lines of "You know how to reach me" but I guess it's better to end it like this. I personally don't care what's better, that you know of me, don't care how hard it might be if it means that we talk again, but heh. Probably stretching this out too far. I just wish you all the best, as you deserve the best.

That goes for the rest of the people who read this as well, I wish you all good luck with any endeavours and RPs.

For the evil people: May your scheming be dark and your endeavours worthwhile as you reap the rewards of your victims.

For the good people: May the light guide you in times of trouble, and lend you her strength in times of need. Have faith.

Adieu & So long.

[Piroska]

Bye.