Small break.. Well not so small.

[Vind101]

Well, I thought I should -finally- post this. Seeing as I have not been on the server in weeks, and really don't know if i'll -ever- be back on. This isn't a bye, i'm never coming back. This is a, out of respect for my community I will give a reason that I have been gone. Some people may point at me and say "Oh look, Vind is making an excuse." I say, no. I have a life, but I also have enough spare time to get on the server everyday, but it's a small question. "Do I want to?" The answer is no. The main thing that told me to take a break, and perhaps quit. Was to actually be -afraid- to STAND in GMI. Feeling as if, boom i'm going to get sucker punched in drama. Or i'm going to look down at my chat and see a huge arguement on POINTLESS subjects. If you really want to tell someone what you think of something, I don't mind. But if you start critising twenty other things in the process. Then just stop. That's not an opinion, that's "To much information, mmk?"

I just want my thoughts to be shared, and for people to read and understand them. I joined this server to have fun. Like everyone else, I didn't join to be sitting in the back of the classroom (AKA server) And afraid the 'popular kids' will frame me as a nerd and push me back. Bassically it's saying I didn't join to get judged. OOC I never mean disrespect to someone, unless I -tell- you in private. Or in the open I have a problem with you. Yet I have never done that, anyone want to know why? I will repeat myself, and so many others that have posted their reason for leaving. Because I respect, and love my community SO MUCH, that I don't want to create drama. No matter the consiquences.

Out of my year of being here, the RP is a great experience, hell it developed my thoughts on my attitude for real life. Most players have respect and are very easy to get along with. But seriously, if I try to talk to you about something that i'm feeling is hurting me. And you get a GM on me, or you try to -outsmart- me. I'm not in college sitting in a classroom with glasses trying to have a discussion on how fucking Oboma (Or however you spell the name. -.-) Is running the country. I will say it again, if I want to be judged and have fingers pointed at me. I would -do- something to attract the attention.

My life is so stressful, that the one place I love to be. Is actually affecting me, for the people that -know- me. They know that, I usually don't let drama affect me to the point where I jump into public chats and rant. I may 'vent' to other players. But that's just showing my trust to the player base that they can handle my thoughts. And know that i'm not going to do half I say. I mean sometimes i'm having to pull people onto MSN and talk to them about my problems. So i'm not having eyes stare onto me. I've had what i've said streamed to SO MANY people. That I just shake my head and know that I feel like i'm being dictated by the rules.

I follow the rules the BEST that I can, but when I feel that the -rules- are apart of my absence. Then I know I need to get a new mind-set.

Just going to repeat. This is not a rage thread. Nor is this my final words, if anyone wants to talk to me. (I doubt anyone does) Add me on MSN (<!-- e --><a href="mailto:[email protected]][email protected]</a><!-- e -->) I don't know how many of my close friends of the server are left. Because most of them have already left for the reasons I stated above.

Just one more word. I love you CoTH, you are the second best thing that came into my life. I never wished to loose you, but i'm afraid i'm going to have to take a break. Yes i'm breaking up with you CoTH. (For now) ;P Love you all!

[BountyHunter]

-Hugs and kisses-

Love you too! See you in the future, we can hope.

[Krilari]

Hope to see you again, good luck getting things set straight.

/salute

[Loxmardin]

Take your time, bro'. CotH will undoubtably still be around when you feel like dropping by again, and hopefully some of the issues you've addressed have been delved into.

... Hopefully!

Regardless. Good luck with everything during your break. Take it easy and whatnot.

/hug

[Spiralin]

Cya Vind!! You were part of the small group that I originally met when I joined on CotH, on Alistar, but before you pulled the huge name change. Annnnyway... Bye again, good luck with whatever endeavors you're going to do now, and I hope you're happier!

[DiesUltime]

More power to you Vind. You're acting instead of just complaining like a lot of people have been doing.

If it stops being fun, stop doing it! This isn't a job or a need.