02-16-2012, 01:02 PM
Frankly, since I have reflected certain things upon me, especially my way of dealing with things, I felt such a post was needed. I'm sometimes quite the jerk and aware of that. I tend to fall into a certain, insufferable attitude when dealing with different matters which frankly, are not worth cussing over, as I have realised. Firstly, this is an apology; an apology towards those I have been disrespectful towards, those I have mayhaps even disgruntled or those who had felt insulted by any of my words.
Secondly, I wish to give an explanation over my behaviour regarding certain things. I've started my RPing on another community and frankly, it was vastly different from what I have experienced here; cussing, disrespect and such were fine and dandy. Sadly, as much as I have learned on that server, as much negative aspects I have picked up; I've become cynical, brash and rude, when I face certain matters regarding lore, or sometimes, ignorance when things only seem logical to me in exchange for having my RP bashed up to what quality it is now, the same for my knowledge of lore. And now, it is the time to lay down that attitude I have dug myself into, attempting to crawl out of a bunker which was ment to be destroyed months ago. I'm aware that I cannot change over a single night, and I plead for forgiveness if progress seems slow, but I shall attempt my worst to strike down what pityful existence remains of that negative, idiotic attitude and crush it beneath my soles. Seeing the -vast- differences between these two Servers have made me realise that, and frankly, reflection and information from other people. I'm not trying to push any guilt away regarding my behaviour; it is as it is and I am the one responsible for it.
Thirdly, exams, personal stress in which I will not elaborate in and other factors have been pressing on me. This might've affected by behaviour, but I wouldn't know, perhaps I was seeking a different method of venting, other than sports. Nonetheless, this does not justify my brashness and behaviour, it should've been my duty to realise that my attitude was naught but literally -wrong-.
On another note; I am horrible at explaining myself and generally bad with words. Therefore, I do hope that this will be enough to settle this matter; an apology towards those I might have offended in the past and to those who had to deal with my horrid attitude. And now, there is naught but to plead for a second chance. I shall give my best to deal with what horrible attitude is inside me and annihilate it, for it is but a stain upon one's soul.
Excuses.
Secondly, I wish to give an explanation over my behaviour regarding certain things. I've started my RPing on another community and frankly, it was vastly different from what I have experienced here; cussing, disrespect and such were fine and dandy. Sadly, as much as I have learned on that server, as much negative aspects I have picked up; I've become cynical, brash and rude, when I face certain matters regarding lore, or sometimes, ignorance when things only seem logical to me in exchange for having my RP bashed up to what quality it is now, the same for my knowledge of lore. And now, it is the time to lay down that attitude I have dug myself into, attempting to crawl out of a bunker which was ment to be destroyed months ago. I'm aware that I cannot change over a single night, and I plead for forgiveness if progress seems slow, but I shall attempt my worst to strike down what pityful existence remains of that negative, idiotic attitude and crush it beneath my soles. Seeing the -vast- differences between these two Servers have made me realise that, and frankly, reflection and information from other people. I'm not trying to push any guilt away regarding my behaviour; it is as it is and I am the one responsible for it.
Thirdly, exams, personal stress in which I will not elaborate in and other factors have been pressing on me. This might've affected by behaviour, but I wouldn't know, perhaps I was seeking a different method of venting, other than sports. Nonetheless, this does not justify my brashness and behaviour, it should've been my duty to realise that my attitude was naught but literally -wrong-.
On another note; I am horrible at explaining myself and generally bad with words. Therefore, I do hope that this will be enough to settle this matter; an apology towards those I might have offended in the past and to those who had to deal with my horrid attitude. And now, there is naught but to plead for a second chance. I shall give my best to deal with what horrible attitude is inside me and annihilate it, for it is but a stain upon one's soul.
Excuses.
Spoiler:
Sanity? Of course!