I think I'm done here

[ImagenAshyun]

I never had the opportunity to RP with you in full. This makes me sad.

Godspeed, Dae. We'll certainly miss you.

[Kaze]

Take it easy. Way too much regard for a thread written in a minute, gotta say.

[Rowgen]

When someone who's been a dedicated member of the community for a long time decides to leave for good, it usually causes reactions from many people.

[Dae]

About why I left CotH... Well, in part, some of my stories had wrapped up, and I was having a really off time getting engaged in RP of any sort. And with WoW in particular, it fell into the artist/gamer trap of "why am I playing when I could be modding?" as I learned more and more about dealing with WoW assets. 

The other matter, and why I was so curt about taking my leave was the rules of this server. Not what they are or who upholds them, mind you, but why they are used and enforced on this server. I have posted on several occasions prior that I considered the rules and character guidelines as a way to safeguard the continuity of the server. That was something I really loved about this place- it wasn't a stage in which RP took place, but a version of the WoW universe that the members of CotH shared. 
For a long time, particularly in the months leading up to my departure, it seemed more and more evident to me that the rules of the server were not, in fact, intended to keep a consistency in CotH's version of WoW. The idea of this server having a collective iteration of the game's lore seemed to be, at the very most, a novel idea that I might share with a few others rather than the vital concept made CotH so special in my eyes.
Instead, many people seemed to voice the notion that the rules are there as the only thing keeping the server from sliding down some horrible, evil slope into Mary Sueland, meta gaming and catgirl-demon hunter-Draenei/High Elf hybrid-dragons from god modding the countryside.
(And it's not the dragon thread that did it, mind you. I was feeling this for a while before that, especially in the way certain ideas were handled in the character profile section I frequently lurked around in.)

I don't like communities governed by a sense of fear. Well not just that, but anything I associate with functioning on fear or carelessness, rather than a satisfying degree of logic. Just thinking about being in that kind of situation makes me feel trapped, and that I need to scream and fight and do whatever it takes to get out.

Suffice to say, It grinds my gears like nothing else, even if its to a very small degree, such as a website that I voluntarily participate with. And yet that is what I had come to see CotH as. And because I cared for this community, once I had identified this, I knew that I would be bitter about it until I fought to my satisfaction on trying to rectify something that so gravely offends me.
But then, I asked myself if it would really be worth it. It would shake up the status quo in the OoC realm terribly if I had my way, and ICly, things have been going just fine, if not better with the promise of new areas, events and Cataclysm just around the corner. I felt that this was primarily my own personal issues acting as a thorn in my side, and rather than doing what I thought would make others pointlessly frustrated, I dropped it. The server  the community, everything.

My family life has recently been mired in static and strive, with a big theme of either never letting go, or purposefully avoiding communication in order to make others suffer. As I was tinkering Around with some WoW files, my thoughts inevitably came back to CotH, and how the actions of others in my life reflected my own. 
Though it's most definitely not the same situation on the server as in my personal life, what has been done to me I do not wish to do to others, so it seems logical for me to come back and work out the deep-seated issues which have gotten me so agitated by the server.

So yeah, here I am.

Sup.

[Harmonic]

Welcome back.

[Krilari]

Welcome back! Always good to see a face come back around for a visit.

[CappnRob]

DAE

YOU'RE BACK

I MIIIISSSED YOOOOU


If you ever feel bummed out about stuff, you can hit me up on skype or PMs to discuss it! I had no idea you were feeling down about the server :c

[Sol]

Great to have you back!

[Kage]

Dae! Your back! Welcome welcome ^^

[ImagenAshyun]

I'm sorry the problems of life and the server has resulted in your departure. If you ever have any issues and problems, you can always come to us or at least me, as I can identify with your situation.

Glad to have you back. I look forward to meeting you, Flora, and any other characters you may have.

[Loxmardin]

It's great to see you back, Dae. I hope you'll be more comfortable here now. Feel free to poke me in PMs or on Skype if you want to chat away about stuff whenever, and if stuff gets heavy again. <3