Stepping back

[Holynexus]

Hey,

Given that lately things have gotten a bit out of hand and frustrating here on CotH and that iRL things aren't very pretty either, I'll take a step back for at least three days, but I'd expect a bit more. I don't know, it depends how I handle all this.

Uh, you still have my Skype or something. I won't be too long, just time to sort things up! ^^

Best of wishes to everyone.

[Kira13]

Hope everything gets better, and we'll be waiting for you to get back!

[Holynexus]

^^ Don't worry. I need a breather! Besides, if I keep spending my nights on CotH someone might just want to cut my internet full-time, and now I would feel silly. x)

[Caravan]

I hope your breather goes well, honey. Enjoy the outside world!

[Kira13]

Spending nights? It's 4:18am here, don't tell me about spending nights! xD

[Holynexus]

Meh. I'm still not really that eager to come back. Everything just seems plain dark and gloomy. There isn't much point in anything, really. I don't know when I'm back. If I ever am.

[Scout]

Perhaps you should consider talking to a therapist? The way your posts are worded, you sound kind of depressed, and if that's the case, it's good to get help.

[Ormica]

Well know that we love you, even if you love dorfs >.<, come back when you feel ready

[Holynexus]

I'm around, but still inactive. Thinking of going dark in a while. I really need to ponder certain stuff.

[Bingles]

If you want any RP i'm always available! I hope ya' come back soon dorflady. c:

[CappnRob]

Take care my sister in dorf!

[Holynexus]

Hm, thank you.

I'm trying to log in for a while, though...but I'm not inspired for roleplay. I try to keep it all up, but eh, I frankly think I'm sinking.

[Geoni]

I frankly think I'm sinking.

*throws this out towards Holy*



Seriously though, you need to find your floatie, whatever that may be. This post is really concerning.

[Loxmardin]

I'd warmly suggest you find a site somewhere that you can roleplay strictly by forum posts, in order to vent your thoughts and just empty your mind a bit. Or just write down your feelings in general and make sure to get it all out of your mind, or just help it process the things you're experiencing.

I don't know if it works for you, but writing is an excellent way for me to come to terms with the things I think and feel and to better... define them, so I can understand them and slowly begin to deal with them. I find that writing these things down or otherwise portraying them in an elaborate forum post on a roleplaying forum through the mask of another person works wonders (especially if you can make someone else happy with it, too; some of the best and most enjoyable texts are written when you feel at your worst).

And, finding another forum to do this on might be a good way to spark your inspiration again, since you get to immerse yourself in something completely different. It's good to change the sheets once in a while, after all, and get a breath of fresh air.

[Holynexus]

I could try writing, but I'm afraid it would worsen my issues. I'd rather forget about it all. I have a couple other RP hangouts, but most are currently empty, drained by Guild Wars 2 and relative games.

I should probably see someone. I try to keep merry, but I find even this basic incentive pointless. It's like a sort of black hole that nears and sucks everything off my mind. I barely have any incentive for my own relationship and I only cling to my studies for.... I don't even know why...

But writing... I have no idea what I could write. A gothic short story, maybe? I'm not in the mood for anything light-hearted, yet I feel writing something sinister will only make me sink further. Besides I'm sure my writing skills are terrible... So I don't know what to write.

Now if anyone had an idea, I would gladly take it, I suppose. I need to find a way out of this bleak hole I stuck myself into.